Soul Integration

What is it?

Healed.

With the changes in my life recently I have more free time. In an uninspired effort to fill that time I’ve been spending some of it on social media. It’s not my favorite thing to do and I’m already weaning myself off it.

In as much as I dislike social media, I must admit that there are flashes of inspiration amongst the detritus. And occasionally something pops up that makes me think or inspires me.

This week I saw a post on Facebook that both inspired my perception to shift and invited clarity. And that led me to the breakthrough I’ve been expecting, soul integration.

The post was on the Tiny Buddha page on Facebook. It read: Something a therapist ounce said: “You’re not healing to be able to handle trauma, pain, anxiety, depression. You’re used to those. You’re healing to be able to handle joy and to accept happiness back into your life.”

It felt like wisdom. I let it change me, shift my perception. The recent phase of purge and ego death had left me feeling raw and wounded. The wisdom of that post allowed me to change how I felt about the years of healing I’ve been through.

In a moment I went from seeing the heaviness to feeling the lightness. The lightness of being healed. And then I heard the message.

“healed”

My soul was reminding me of the promise that was made about the last round of purging and releasing. It was the last time. “Healed.” It sounded and felt like a completion.

Soul Integration.

It felt like a normal afternoon meditation at first. But lately the energies have been becoming stronger for me. Recent channels have been taking me to new planes of existence and outside of my body.

My favorite experiences have been a place I call the realm of the Divine Feminine. It is beautiful and dark. Filled with flowing water and starlight. There is a sacred feminine figure. And I can never remember exactly what happens there, but I leave fulfilled.

Recently after an experience in the Divine Feminine realm, I felt funny. It felt like someone was in my skin with me. As if they were moving in with me. It has happened before during my spiritual awakening, but that was long ago.

Still feeling that someone was with me, the energy shifted. I suddenly felt very close with my soul. It felt as if we were together physically and taking up the same space.

Then awareness flashed, this was integration. Soul integration. This was the breakthrough I’d been expecting. Instead of some epic spiritual experience, it was quiet.

We, both me and my soul, were tired. The day after integration day, we had spiritual flu symptoms. Self-care was prioritized and we affirmed our healthy body and immune system.

The next day I went on a long walk and gained a deeper understanding of what “soul integration” meant and what it felt like.

In hindsight, I saw the work that my soul, Flame, and I had put into our relationship. The misunderstandings, apologies, and changed behaviors that contributed to our improved connection.

Also in hindsight, I understood the importance of receiving what was meant for me. Being open to the infinite possibilities for my life even when the current situation is challenging.

I understood that the challenging work of the late stage purging and releasing was a very important phase of my awakening. The message I received was that most people quit during that phase.

It’s probably why I was guided to write about that phase, because if I can move through those energies, so can you.

What is Soul Integration?

All of what I experienced in recent months was important preparation for soul integration. It also left me wondering what was “soul integration”?

What did that mean to me? What meaning was I going to place on it? What did it mean to my soul?

I received wisdom in the form of a message. When we have healed our inner work, there is nothing in the way of the relationship with our soul. We become one with our soul because there is no shadow standing in our way, or out of balance ego making unnecessary challenges to us.

This is why soul integration came after the message “healed”. Because instead of a big spiritual ceremony, it simply means that we get out of our own way. We’ve healed what needed to be healed so our soul can lead our lives. The result being our soul is the main part of our life. Our soul, not our shadow.

To me it feels like a deeper level of relationship with my soul. A more aligned relationship. We’ve healed and it has improved our connection.

Leading up to soul integration I wasn’t sure what to expect. I surrendered and let it flow to me. What I learned from it was that the years of healing, the years of inner work, it was all worth it to have the relationship that I now have with my soul. 

An Announcement.

Late last year, I wrote about my sexual awakening. Those pages are becoming quite popular, so I decided to compile them on their own page. My Sexual Awakening Blog Series page is now up and running. Check it out if it resonates with you.

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I’m grateful you’re here. I love you.

Be well, beautiful soul,

Nikki