One Year Post Cancer

March 16th, 2022 is the one-year anniversary of my cancer diagnosis. This morning, I had an appointment at the cancer center and there are no concerns at this time. It’s both expected and a relief. I am grateful.  

It was interesting to walk down those hallways again. The same hallways where I had so many tests. The same hallways that I went to every business day for 16 days during radiation therapy. To be in that building again on the other side of cancer, was interesting. It felt different.

I’ve changed and I’m still changing. These days, I feel like I’m in the middle of changing. I’m not yet who I’m going to be but also not who I used to be. It feels weird and hopeful at the same time.

Today, more than most days, I feel that in between vibe. The words don’t come as easily because they are not yet rooted in the past or clear on the future. I can only speak to what’s happening now, in this moment.

So, for right now, I can offer wisdom that I’ve been leaning on for the past year. May it be of service.

Life is short. Maximize the time you have left.

That thing that you daydream about, do it, even if it’s just for a few minutes every day.

Do what you love. It pays off in joy. 

Our bodies are amazing, but they do have limits.

Be as kind and as gentle with yourself as you are to others.

Follow your heart. It will lead where you want to be even if you don’t know what that is right now.

Be a hermit if that’s what you’re called to do.

It’s okay to focus on your own needs and no one else’s.

Follow doctors’ advice, but advocate for yourself.

Healing applies to body, mind, and soul.

Release what no longer resonates.

Change is hard, but not impossible.

Give yourself grace.

Take care of yourself. Do your monthly exams. See a doctor if you have concerns.

The picture is mine from last summer.

Be well,

Nikki