Grateful for the Cold
Celebrating an Abundance of Health.
Two days in a row, I went out wearing the same purple jacket. On the first day, I was grateful to have outerwear that suited the weather. But shortly after venturing out, I felt the cold breeze seeping into my bones. I thought I could have used a warmer jacket.
The second day, I was planning to go out for a quick errand and a walk. The weather was similar to the day before, and remembering the cold, I chose carefully. I thought that an extra layer underneath the same purple jacket should be warm enough for a short walk.
As I set out on my errand, again I felt the cold. It felt painful. The extra layer wasn’t enough. The walk was cancelled, and I went straight home. I felt so cold that when I got home, I immediately changed into warmer clothes.
In the process of changing clothes, awareness hit me hard. I felt cold. My arms and hands went to my chest. It felt icy cold. My chest was FEELING THE COLD.
I stopped mid-change and stood there tangled up in my clothes. Dumbstruck. I realized, my chest has sensation. My chest was feeling cold. The nerves in my chest were communicating the cold.
My post-double mastectomy chest had regained some sensation.
Since the surgery my chest has been almost entirely numb. There have been small improvements in the few years since, but this is a huge change and improvement.
After getting dressed, and with the new awareness, I sat with Spirit. Gratitude flowed. Joy flowed. Then Spirit reminded of an experience I had recently.
On October 29th, I experienced heart expansion. I wrote then, “My heart center received a burst of energy. It tingled with fresh energy. I felt it acutely around my scars. Tiny, gentle fireworks burst across my chest.” At the time awareness came that this was a heart awakening ascension process.
As I sat in gratitude for feeling cold on my chest, that’s the experience that spirit was reminding me of. The heart awakening ascension had come with healing. And it was the ability to feel the cold on my chest, through that purple jacket, that allowed me to realize that blessing.
I then brought awareness to my health. I allowed myself to be in gratitude for each part and system within my body. I sat with my body and celebrated the material abundance that is good health.
Health-y Changes.
For three days after having the awareness of how much my body has healed, I experienced intense downloads and frequent doses of kundalini healing. By the end of the first day, my body was exhausted, sore, and achy.
I felt a little better on the second day. And by the third day I felt well enough for a long walk. Moving my body helped shift energies and allowed me to release more of the old.
Apart from breast cancer, ever since my awakening began my health has improved. My weight has stabilized. I take fewer medications. My skin, bones, lungs, spine, all the old physical aches and pains have improved. Overall, my health has improved.
Since the beginning of my spiritual awakening, the work has included healing. And now, as my awakening quickens with the recent ascension, healing happens not only during the day, but also at night.
Night Moves.
This is one of those things that I didn’t know was a thing until I experienced it. And it only just started happening in recent days. Spirit has begun working with me, through me, at night while I sleep. And it is something I manifested.
I rarely dream. And because I dream so rarely, I take note when it happens. I thought I’d been dreaming lately, but they didn’t feel like dreams. They feel like energy work. When they wake me, I think I’ve been dreaming but then my body says it’s downloads or releases. Some kind of channeling energy.
After the night sessions, when I wake up in the morning, my eyes are wet. Not like tears. They are wet like when I channel. Not enough to cry, just enough to notice that something was happening.
There were persistent synchronistic numbers that were telling me the story of what was happening, but they were not connecting for me. And then the proverbial light bulb flashed on. My thinking mind put the synchronicities and the new awareness together and I realized what had been happening. Spirit had been working with me at night, and it was fulfilling a manifestation.
Weeks ago, as I was working to manage my ego, I was so tired. I remember talking with spirit and expressing my thoughts and fatigue. “I know it doesn’t have to be this hard. You could just come through and clean all this junk out. I don’t have to suffer. You could make it really easy for me.”
That’s exactly what I manifested. Spirit has been making it very easy on me. They have been coming to me at night and clearing out all of the old junk. Just wiping it out. Clearing the past energies away and providing deep healing.
This New Era.
Early in my spiritual awakening process, Spirit asked me what I wanted. My answer came from my soul, “heal this body”. At the time, I had no idea what that meant, but now the results are unmistakable.
When my soul asked for healing for this body, I/we didn’t set parameters. So, Spirit began to heal every part of me, body, mind, heart, and soul. All the work we’ve done, inner and outer, day and night, has been to heal me in every way possible.
It is remarkable that healing my past, my shadow, healing my soul, has impacted my body to such an extent. I feel healthier than I have in a long time. I am 57 years old, and to feel this healthy is a blessing of abundance I celebrate.
This new era includes an abundance of health in all areas of my life - body, mind, heart, and soul. All of which ensures that I can continue to align with and fulfill my soul’s purposes. Including the new one that was revealed to me this week. But that’s a story for another time.
The image in this post is from Canva.
I’m grateful you’re here. I love you.
Be well, beautiful soul,
Nikki
