Deconstructing and Becoming

Deconstructing.

It is all coming together. That is a phrase that has been coming to me for months. It’s what my soul tells me when I’m unsure about the direction of my life. It was meant as reassurance, but maybe it was also a warning.

My experiences with late stage awakening purges, ego deaths, and releasing illusions seem to have converged. So much is being let go of, being released. And each day brings new healing and growth.

I’ve mentioned how my life is going through some challenges. Old eras ending and new eras beginning. And how my inner and outer worlds are so vastly different, stark contrasts. In recent days it feels as though it is all becoming more intense.

It’s beginning to feel like I am deconstructing me. Shedding the old ways I thought, felt, and lived. The purges, ego deaths, releasing of illusions, and attachments feel like the end of old era. One by one we are removing the old structures.

In balance, I have received opportunities to explore infinite wisdom and have beautiful spiritual experiences. Healing my feminine and learning to balance with my masculine energies.

As I release the old energies the truest and highest expression of my soul shines through. We are integrated and that means that no barrier can stand between us. The “barriers” in my case being illusions and ego thought. Hence all the purging.

The purging is eliminating, diminishing, or managing all that is not soul, all that is not Divine. As much as this phase is about shedding the “old” me and creating a “new” me, there is more happening. It’s about rediscovering who I am supposed to be.

I woke up Sunday morning feeling at peace. The energies that we had purged the day before had dissipated and I was left with a peaceful easy feeling as the song goes. The quiet brought up wisdom from the day before.

Becoming.

It has been quite the journey as of late. Surrendering and allowing it to happen for me has helped. Each cycle of purging old energies results in more inner peace. It is both challenging and rewarding.

The process of letting go of past mindsets and belief systems opens energetic space for our soul’s highest expression. Feeling past energies and breaking down the old belief systems, pain, and suffering is excruciating at times, but it is purposeful.

Our spiritual awakenings are about healing our past suffering. They are about letting go of all that is not the Divine within us.

Our spiritual awakenings are about discovering our soul, our inner Divinity. And living on purpose. Living aligned with our soul and our purposes.

Over time and sometimes through sheer determination, it all comes together. We move out of the pain and suffering and move more fully into our soul’s purposes.

Each step of our spiritual awakening serves the purpose of deconstruction and becoming the version of us that is soul.

It’s why butterflies and lotus flowers symbolize awakenings. Butterflies transform from one being to another. Liquifying, dissolving before they emerge in a beautiful new form. The lotus flower makes its way through the mud and muck before it shows its true beauty and purpose.

It’s taken me years of awakening to learn this. Don’t be like me. Learn from my experience and move through your own spiritual awakening process with more ease and grace knowing that you’re becoming the highest expression of your inner Divinity.

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I’m grateful you’re here. I love you.

Be well, beautiful soul,

Nikki