Ascensions, Shifts, Karma, Ego Death, Chakra Expansions, and a New Era

So Much has Happened in Recent Weeks.

This is the first post after completing the My Sexual Awakening series. It feels good to be back. And while the blog was focused on other things, my spiritual path has evolved in ways I didn’t expect. Writing the series was used as cover by my Spirit Team to move me forward on my path at lightning speed.

In recent weeks, I experienced multiple ascensions, big quantum shifts, clearing ancestral karma, a crushing ego death, chakra expansion, and sparks of a new era in my life.

For this post, I referred to my journal, pieces of automatic writing, and Divine inspiration because it was all moving too fast for me to comprehend at times.

October 29th, Ascension.

The day after I published my first sexual awakening blog post, I had the most amazing experience. My heart center received a burst of energy. It tingled with fresh energy. I felt it acutely around my scars. Tiny, gentle fireworks burst across my chest.

As I sat at my altar, basking in the afterglow, new awareness came to me. This was a heart awakening ascension. Just like the sexual awakening ascension, and the kundalini awakening ascension I had recently experienced.

Over the course of a few weeks, I had ascended and expanded in all my awakening processes. Each one leading to, or helping the others, expand. Each one allowed me to carry more light. Each one a steppingstone to the other.

When put together, I have ascended in every area of my spiritual awakening. And, even after years of awakening, I am still learning about the process. It still surprises me.

I should have known that the act of writing about my sexual awakening would be an integration, and part of the process. But I didn’t and it truly was. Each step of the writing process was growth for me.

Looking back in time like that was an opportunity to heal emotionally. And because everything serves many purposes it was also an opportunity to love myself by acknowledging my growth. At times there was so much going on that I have yet to discover the impact of the energies that I experienced.

What just came through for me as I am writing is, soul healing. The soul realm announced their arrival with my left thumb and forefinger pressing together and moving in little circles. I acknowledged and received them with gratitude.

The downloads were strong. I wiggled with kundalini healing. I received awareness that it was healing for our soul, Flame. With intention, I opened to receive as much as I could for my soul. She deserves it all and so much more.

November 11th, First Quantum Shift Post Ascension.

After publishing Part Three of My Sexual Awakening series, I received some huge energy. The awareness came that this was my first quantum shift since ascension. It felt like it too. The energies rocked, shook, and jolted my body. I held on for the ride, knowing and having faith that this too was aligned.

November 12th, Clearing Ancestral Karma.

I was heavy with negative energies. I tried to strategize it away with spiritual practices, but it didn’t work. I headed out into nature in hopes that it would help. And it did, just not the way I expected it to.

On my walk, as much as I tried to release the negative, low-vibe, and dense energies, I couldn’t. Nothing was working. So, I let it come up. Sacred rage. I felt into what sacred rage was and what it wasn’t.

Sacred rage isn’t coming from our ego. It comes from generations of injustice. What “Divine” is to love; “sacred” is to rage. It is universal energies. It is the rage that is suppressed by generations, for generations.

For me, on that day, it was coming from generations of ancestors who had experienced abuse. I followed guidance and sat in power. Sacred rage came out of me in a silent scream of release. I was enraged and allowed the injustice to flow out of me through my words.

And then something unexpected happened, we released the energy of abused souls. I felt my soul release her own sacred rage. It felt awful and good at the same time.

Words came from within me, and I realized that we were releasing the karma of abuse. In all timelines, all planes of existence, and along all ancestral lines. We were releasing the ancestral karma of abuse.

I broke down into tears as I felt the energies leave. They were big, heavy, and painful. After the energies released, I felt relief. And then I felt my family in Spirit, and I cried even more, releasing more.

My mom came into my awareness first, quickly followed by my grandma’s hands on my cheeks. Any strength I had melted, and I dissolved into tears. We spent a few moments together before I was able to return to calm.

Then I felt my dad in spirit. Intuitively I knew he came through to represent the masculine archetype. He said, “I’m sorry.” I cried even more. I cried that deep, ugly, energy releasing kind of a cry. I let it all go and returned to calm once again.

Alignment, flow, inner peace, and love returned. I know this is all part of the path, and I trust my Spirit Team and my intuitive guidance. Even when the path becomes challenging, I know it is all for my best and highest good. Even when it is kicking my ass, and especially while we’re healing.

The energy work lately has been powerful. Feeling, processing, releasing, receiving, integrating, and healing, it all has a new frequency and intensity. As I change emotionally my body changes as well. And it is all changing so quickly.

I realize now that the pace of my awakening process has quickened. All of what I’ve written here, in this post, is within the span of a couple of hours. Moving through the phases of healing takes hours instead of days now. We are moving fast.

My goal, through all of this, is to go with the flow. I’ve stopped making plans. I follow my guidance and go with the flow. Each morning and evening, I remind myself that we are going with the flow. It’s the easiest thing to do at this pace. Whew!

November 13th, Ascension Continued.

The day after clearing the ancestral karma of abuse, and healing with family in spirit, my heart was in the spotlight. The energy work led us to awareness that had me seeing my connection with my heart from a new perspective.

Throughout my life, I’ve had four surgeries on my chest, including a double mastectomy. I have scars on much of my chest, and one that wraps around to my back. They are, as cliché as it sounds, a roadmap to my life.

They tell the story of a blocked heart chakra. One that was so damaged that parts had to be removed, part of one lung and both breasts. My dear heart has been through a lot of physical and emotional pain. And she has healed every time.

The inner work, the emotional healing, has been hard. And, for a long time, I didn’t connect my emotions with my heart chakra. My heart had been blocked for so long, I forgot that it is our emotional center. Until this moment, when I saw my heart in a new light.

One of my goals from the beginning of my spiritual awakening was to feel everything. It was challenging, and it allowed me to process and heal emotionally. So, I saw emotions, as energy in motion. Energy flowing through the chakra and around us.

But suddenly, I realize that all my emotions are running through my heart. It probably seems so obvious, but to me this was a big shift in awareness. And now I see, my heart is remarkable. Her ability to heal is limitless.

My dear heart has chosen to heal from the past and soften to the current moment. My heart no longer has walls. She does not need to protect herself. Our higher self is responsible for setting and holding our boundaries so my heart can soften and open to the current experience.

November 15th, Ego Death.

If I thought the energies were becoming too strong for me before, it was proven to me through ego death. For a while I thought it was just a lot of old energies coming up to be released. But as I worked through the energies, I noticed that they weren’t releasing.

The rage, anger, and frustration just kept coming. I released the energies, and they kept coming back up, over and over. And then I started screaming and rage. I released that too.

I kept checking in with my intuition and getting mixed signals. It felt like in that moment my entire world was falling apart. I was mad at Spirit and started giving ultimatums. Do this or I will do this! Show up for me or I have to walk away! I continued to rage and cry. I’ve been doing a lot of that lately.

There have been a few times in my spiritual awakening that felt like this, mentally unwell. Scary energies emerging to be released or surrendered. And then my soul, my intuition, came through whispering to me, “ego death”. Once I realized what I was working with, I was able to surrender.

I surrendered to Spirit and melted into a puddle of tears and snot. That is how the process works. That was the next step. We’ve done it before, and we can do it again. Let it go and let it flow.

I am choosing to trust, again. My life will be rebuilt, again. My spiritual path continues, again.

Then the real work started. Clarity and awareness came, and with them, new intentions, goals, and affirmations. I spoke out loud the intention that has carried me through recent days, alignment, flow, inner peace, and love.

We were rebuilding ourselves within hours of ego death. Spirit and I were co-creating the path forward. And we were doing so at lightning speed.

November 20th, Integrating and Heart Chakra Expansion.

The changes since ego death have been intense. My emotions were scattered with 100% chance of tears in the forecast. I released so much energy, and then intense downloads brought the new aligned energy. It was equally rewarding and exhausting.

After many downloads throughout the day, I focused on rest and chose the sofa. Almost as soon as I became aware of my being rested, Spirit and I were co-creating illusions. It’s how we co-create and manifest my life. This time it was beautiful love.

Then I felt my heart chakra expand and my heart open wide. Universal energies streamed in. My back arched and I was held by the powerful energy. For a few seconds, I floated.

I didn’t actually float above the sofa, but it felt like it.

In the energy, I was weightless. Light as a feather. It was bliss.

I rested in the afterglow for a time. Body, mind, and soul were nurturing our heart. It was beautiful and loving.

November 21st, Throat Expansion and Continued Integration.

I was guided out on an errand. The material world was knocking, and it needed attention. It allowed me some much-needed movement and time outdoors. I enjoyed loud music in my ears and remained alert for my safety. I also enjoyed showers of synchronicities. We were being supported as we found joy in a challenge.

My thoughts were supportive, and every synchronicity became an affirmation. By the time I got back home, I received messages of flow. No matter what is going on in my personal life, I am grateful to have the awareness and experience to return to the flow.

Feeling good meant I was aligned with my true self. The old energies began to release in huge gobs. I coughed and coughed. My throat chakra released and expanded. Awareness came that screaming in rage helped to open my fifth chakra. My intuition guided me to turquoise and amazonite. My throat calmed and began healing.

Woven within all the stories of the energies and experiences is my inner work. Each phase of this awakening is connected to healing and growth. Each phase brings its own challenges and blessings. And with each phase I become a more authentic version of myself, my best and highest self.

I’m starting to feel new again. I saw many butterfly images on that walk earlier today. Angels were rejoicing our transformation. Commercial planes leaving sharp contrails upward over the Rocky Mountains were a sign of our rapid growth and ascension.

Integration is happening, and it feels so good. The awareness, growth, strength, and self-acceptance feel like the new authentic me.

November 29th. Major Growth.

Last night was exhausting. Major activations, frequent big downloads, and about three hours of sleep, let me know that major growth was coming.

The activations within this new vibration are surprising. They don’t “sound” like the old high pitch tones, they “feel”. This one felt like pressure changes moving in my brain from side to side. It took a few minutes before awareness and intuition confirmed it as an activation.

The downloads felt like a smorgasbord. Releasing, healing, and upgrades, it was all on the menu.

I woke up today with a headache. After a few hours, Flame confirmed it was spiritual flu symptoms. A combination of peppermint and lavender essential oils on a tissue cured my headache in time.

I am so very grateful for the love, support, protection, and guidance from my spirit team. I’m so excited for what is to come. So grateful for it and for the excitement of it.

November 30th, Connecting Chakra.

For days, maybe weeks, my soul, Flame, and I have been co-creating a new plan for our altar, the plants, and the bedroom. Last night we saw the vision. Today, it came into being.

Step by step Flame guided me forward. We moved the plants. We moved our altar. We redecorated the space and reset our altar. It was flow. And it turned out beautifully.

We set the intention to sit and watch the sunrise turn the Rocky Mountains pink the next time we happen to wake up early. And set the intention to sit and watch the sun set behind the Rocky Mountains. The vision and awareness of the beauty allowed me to cry and release some heavy energy.

As we sat in our newly refreshed space, we received many downloads. Releasing, upgrades, healing, it all came in waves.

I spoke words that I no longer remember. They will come to us later. When we need them. We accrued additional and expanding wisdom.

My inner vision showed me both green and red. We intuitively reached for our sacral chakra and held our heart chakra.

We felt the energies connecting between the two chakra centers. An arch of energy. We felt and spoke words of connection and communication. We received and spoke awareness of the connection between the 2nd and 4th chakra.

The heart chakra, our emotions, connected with our sacral, our sexuality, our Divine feminine. Feeling into our sexuality. Experiencing Divine wisdom. Opening to love.

It echoed the sexual awakening work that we have been doing as of late. Opening to our sexuality. Being open to love. Re-awakening our sexuality after focusing on other aspects of life and allowing the connection to atrophy.

December 12th, A New Era.

So much has happened since I began writing My Sexual Awakening blog series. Knowing what I was going to post on the blog for the series allowed me to focus on my spiritual awakening. From that space and energy, I was able to navigate challenging energies of healing and ascension. Including ascension symptoms and spiritual flu.

After a few more rounds of awareness, growth, and healing, my energy is becoming lighter. I am more at peace than I have been for a long time.

The cycles I am experiencing through my spiritual awakening are continuing to quicken. The pace is fast, but after weeks of work they are becoming easier to navigate.

I feel, and am receiving messages of, a new era in my life. New blessings are on their way, if not here already.

Some of the synchronicities I see often are receiving new definitions. Angels and my intuition are guiding me through new types of messages. New energies are being explored and discovered. New paths are being cultivated. It is a new era.

The image in this post was found at Canva. We picked it intuitively. It reflects the ascending and expanding energies of recent weeks.

I’m grateful you’re here. I love you.

Be well, beautiful soul,

Nikki