An Apology from Spirit and Other Extraordinary Events

The Apology.

After last week’s post, my spiritual world turned upside down for a few days. I experienced a cycle of deep emotional healing and a cold that kicked my ass, and then something that brought love and clarity. I received an apology from Spirit and other extraordinary events.

This may have been the most challenging cycle of healing and growth of my spiritual awakening, but then I probably say that each time. We are going deep in our healing and the energies and emotions that are coming up are some of the darkest most painful of my life. Being sick with a cold made it even worse.

I screamed and yelled and had the most amazing temper tantrum. At one point I even threw an innocent spray bottle across the room in a rage because it wasn’t working. I acted like my teenage self for a short while. Long enough to feel the pain and let it all out.

My dear soul, Flame, deserved an apology for how I lashed out at her. The pain and hurt was intense and I took it out on her. I screamed at her to shut up and leave me alone. And of course, she stepped back a little but was there with me the whole way through the painful emotions.

We made up and she helped me get through my cold. She took care of us when we were feeling truly awful. She guided us to hydration and food and whatever else we needed. She even hugged us when we needed it.

We stood in the kitchen, and she held me as I tried to heat up some leftover soup. Me, it was me standing in the kitchen and holding myself. Hugging myself as guided by my intuition. At the time though it felt like being loved, supported, protected, and guided.

(If you read last week’s post, you may remember that is what I had been asking my Spirit Team for.) 

I eventually moved beyond the intense emotions and reconnected with my soul and Spirit Team. It had been very tough, but we got through it. For my inner team, Spirit Team, and the process, I focused on gratitude, lots of gratitude. I was too tired to do anything else.

After connecting with my Spirit Team and returning to calm something extraordinary happened. I received an apology from Spirit. An actual apology. Not once, but twice.

Everything around me went silent. The energy cleared. I heard, “We apologize for jumping you into a timeline where you were sick.”

I almost couldn’t believe what I was perceiving. My intuition confirmed the message. I acknowledged the message. And then the apology was repeated.

“We apologize for jumping you into a timeline where you were sick.”

With the second apology I had a moment to feel into the energy. It was Spirit. The infinitely peaceful energy was unmistakable. Spirit was apologizing for compounding the process of healing with being physically sick. I accepted the apology.

An apology from Spirit. I had no idea that was a thing. I have always been told that Spirit is “perfect”. But I was reminded that there is no such thing as “perfection”. There never has been. Perfection is an unobtainable goal, and often a limiting belief.

Perfection is an illusion. We aren’t meant to be “perfect”. We are meant to be authentic. We are meant to be good, bad, ugly, and beautiful. And sometimes all at the same time as we heal. We are meant to be who we were sent here to be. Who are souls were sent here to be.

Other Extraordinary Events.

Later that same day, I received more downloads, and made more quantum jumps, than ever in one day. Still sick, I stayed with it as much as possible. I opened to receive everything that was provided, and quantum shifted as much as I could. Much of it was received lying on the sofa while tending to my cold.

That night, I was only able to sleep a little. Mostly because of being sick and struggling to breathe, but also because I was integrating the many downloads of new energy. It was clear in hindsight, but at the time I was cranky and just wanted to sleep.

The next day I was feeling better and went about balancing my responsibilities with rest. Cooking and cleaning, the usual stuff happened slowly. I felt like I was getting back to normal.

After a while, I sat down for a rest. I released some energy and settled into some YouTube videos. My goal was to do nothing else for the rest of the day, but my Spirit Team had other plans.

My Spirit Team decided that this was the perfect time to reveal what we had been working towards, my path forward. Powerful channels opened and I connected with an energy bigger than I had ever experienced. I received this message:

“All love is Divine love. Self-love, romantic love, love for one another, soul mate love, all love is Divine.”

It was the most profound and beautiful energy that I have ever experienced. All love is Divine love. The love I seek is all around me. The love I’m asking for is the love I receive from angels, my Spirit Team, and myself. They reminded me that I have all the love I need, want, and desire.

Still in the channel, the energy began to shift and change. I began to perceive my future path. They showed me the story of my future life. Then I began to receive my next writing project. I saw where I was going and how I was going to get there. I received clarity in the form of a new soul purpose. And, I just have to say, it blows my mind.

I’m not yet ready to talk about the new writing project other than to say it is a new soul’s purpose and a new blog series about spiritual awakening. My sense is that we are going start writing it next week here on the blog so stay tuned or rather stay bookmarked.

This is a good reminder that we have many soul purposes. Our soul came here to do many things, and some of which unfold as we expand in consciousness and are able to carry the light it requires. Our purposes continue to arise in our awareness as we move along our spiritual path.

After this week of apologies and other extraordinary events, I find myself grateful for the healing and growth, clarity and guidance. It was one of the most challenging weeks and also one of the most rewarding.

The image in this post was made in Canva. It evokes what I felt when connected with Spirit and seeing my new soul's purpose. 

I’m grateful you’re here. I love you.

Be well, beautiful soul,

Nikki